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True Confessions of a Rock Star

“This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth: Bit if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his son cleanseth us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1st John 1:5-9

“He that covereth his sins shall not prosper:
but whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.”
Proverbs 28:13

I want to be a Rock Star
and do things my own way
Then I can enjoy life's pleasures
as a teenager I would say

So I first practiced with a joint
and then I popped my share of pills
But then Cocaine was such a rush
and like good tunes these gave me thrills

My band had many players
like roach clips, razors and straws
Yet the Crack Pipe and Heroin needle
took the center stage from all

Thus my lifestyle had to be adjusted
for my party came to an end
I became so filthy and disgusting
in total denial of all my sins

For my sin took all that was descent
as I betrayed my family and friends
Now I'm left with filthy swine in the mire
to wallow with those of like sins

I'm now a bonafied Crack Rock Star
and my popularity is known wide and far
My fans are the perverts who pay me
but hey, It's the life of a Star!

I jump in and out of cars to earn my living
love for me is a dirty quick thrill
Yet the drugs call out to my soul
Thus, I must perform so their spell I can feel

I've spent many nights in motel rooms
It got so easy after a few times
Some people call me a crack whore
and I am living in a world of half truths and lies

But it's just the life of a Crack Rock Star
It's the price I must pay for my dream
I tell myself that I am going crazy
to hide the truth I refuse to but see

I now have a reprobate mind
and I've dishonored God above this I know
I worship and serve creature lust
and not the Creator of my own soul

I knew the judgment of God upon such
and yet I still did the same
I've taken pleasure in filthiest of sins
I must really be totally insane?

Because there is the wrath of Almighty God
a subject most sinners don't like
For men live in the sins and the shame
of ungodly life styles of perversions and lies

Yet Rock Stars all have their seasons
and mine is now coming to a close
I really don't wish to believe it
but my soon to be future is out in the cold

My face is sunken and wrinkled
my beauty is a pair of tight jeans
My body is becoming decrepit and skinny
and the truth I wish not to believe

Used all up walking the streets
I no longer care what anyone thinks
I am facing the reality I've feared
and now homeless into the darkness I sink

I am of my father the devil
because I rejected God's Word to my soul
It reproved me of the drugs I so loved
so I raged when the truth I was told

In unbelief the Devil has blinded me
and like Jezebel I'm devoured by dogs
It is the last season before death and hell claim my soul
and my final curtain is drawn

I know I have a whore's forehead
and I have refused to return
Yet God in His mercy seeks to open my eyes
before in hell's flames I am given to burn

I am reaping what I have sown
and I've been defiled by the lowest of beast
No longer to pick those I will use
I am now used like a raw piece of meat

It all began with a flirtation
and now it all ends in such shame and filth
If only I had believed the Holy Bible
this nightmare would not be so real

Yet I am only facing the consequences
of going my own stubborn way
And now I must face the sad truth
Stardom is not worth all this pain

Consider these word that I say
it’s the price I now suffer and pay
''JUST SAY NO!'' was not a suggestion
it was a choice I now wish I had made

Yet it really don't have to end this way
as my life now comes to an end
Jesus loves me I know
because He keeps turning my thoughts back to Him

Hard hearted I blamed the whole world
so bitter I was caught in a snare
Yet I really don't want to go to hell
against God's mercy, forgiveness and care

Thus take heed to what I now say
don't suffer this cruel price I have paid
Trust Jesus to save your soul
and then go share His grace with a lost sinner like me today!
© 1999 Raymond Bolton Pena

“Fear not, for thou shalt not be ashamed: neither be though confounded: for thou shalt not be put to shame: for thou shalt forget the shame of thy youth, and shalt not remember the reproach of thy widowhood anymore. For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of host is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called. For the LORD hath called thee as a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit, and a wife of youth, when thou wast refused, saith thy God. For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee. In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer.” Isaiah 54:4-8

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