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A

Pilgrim's

Perspective

of

Reality Reflected

 

I.

A

Voice

of

One Dying

in the

Bewilderedness

 

II.

Unprofitable Servant

Unworthy

Am I

 

III.

To Be Subdued

 

IV.

That I

May

Know Him

 

V.

Jesus Cares

and

Calls For You

 

VI.

Crucified with Christ

 

VII.

Reflections

in my

Window

 

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I.

A

Voice

of

One Dying

in the

Bewilderedness

 

"Comfort ye, comfort ye my people, saith your God. Speak ye comfortably to Jerusalem, and cry unto her, that her warfare is accomplished, that her iniquity is pardoned: for she hath received of the Lord's hand double for all her sins. The voice of him that crieth in the wilderness, Prepare ye the way of the LORD, make straight in the desert a highway for our God. Every valley shall be exalted, and every mountain and hill shall be made low: and the crooked shall be made straight, and the rough places plain: And the glory of the LORD shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together: for the mouth of the LORD hath spoken it." Isaiah 40:1-5

 

To whosoever finds this voice

of one dying in the fray

This Pilgrim’s Journey is a choice

we make from day to day

 

When tests and trials prove our patience

as persecutions rage

We sometimes lose our faith in practice

when we react in un-Christ like ways

 

Yet as we learn from day to day

to count the painful cost

It’s in this dying that we find

what it means to take up our cross

 

And though bewildered by the battles

which ever seem to rage

We must develop our faith and patience

this is the way all Saints are trained

 

So if you’re dying in the bewilderedness

take heart you’re not alone

For you’ve found the voice of just one of many

who are also dying to self, but are not alone.

© 2005 Raymond Bolton Pena

 

"And when he had called the people unto him with his disciples also, he said unto them, Whosoever will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it; but whosoever shall lose his life for my sake and the gospel’s, the same shall save it. For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? Whosoever therefore shall be ashamed of me and of my words in this adulterous and sinful generation; of him also shall the Son of man be ashamed, when he cometh in the glory of his Father with the holy angels." Mark 8:34-38

 

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II.

Unprofitable Servant

Unworthy

Am I

 

"And the apostles said unto the Lord, increase our faith. And the Lord said, if had faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye might say unto this sycamine tree, Be thou plucked up by the root, and be thou planted in the sea; and it should obey you. But which of you, having a servant plowing or feeding cattle, will say unto him by and by, when he is come from the field, Go and sit down to meat? And will not rather say unto him, Make ready wherewith I may sup, and gird thyself , and serve me, till I have eaten and drunken; and afterward thou shalt eat and drink?  Doth he thank that servant because he did the things that were commanded him? I think not. So likewise ye, when ye shall have done all those things which are commanded you, say, We are unprofitable servants: we have done that which was our duty to do." Luke 17:5-10

 

When the world shall begrudge thee for their own selfish desires

And thy efforts to do right are sorely despised

Say unprofitable servant, I am an unprofitable servant

Unprofitable and unworthy surely am I

 

Then go thou quickly and wait again on thy Master

For after thy labor He shall require of thee thy time

Therefore ye shall say unprofitable servant, I am an unprofitable servant

For I have only done that which was a duty of mine

  

Thus unprofitable servant, unprofitable servant

when returning from the field thy own bidding do not

But when thou returnest go wait again on thy Master

To break him His daily bread for this is thy lot

 

Then say thou not: "I am now worthy to go do my own bidding

After all these things I have yet done"

But say: "I'm an unworthy and an unprofitable servant

For it is not my will Lord but Thy will be done."

© 2001 Raymond Bolton Pena

 

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III.

To Be Subdued

 

"Who is a God like unto thee, that pardoneth iniquity, and passeth by the transgression of the remnant of his heritage? he retaineth not his anger for ever, because he delighteth in mercy. He will turn again, he will have compassion upon us; he will subdue our iniquities; and thou wilt cast all their sins into the depths of the sea." Micah 7:18-19

 

Born into this present world

A realm of sin and death

Foreordained unto a purpose

Quickened by God’s breath

 

Dreams and Visions of Heavenly callings

Expectations to be renewed

Faithfully leading the way of the cross

Our whole existence to subdue

 

Tested sorely in relation

Unto the task at hand

Refined and polished in the school of patience

Until we comprehend

 

Earthen vessels made of clay

Instruments finely tuned

In oneness with God’s thought and purpose

The flesh He can not use

 

Quickened by God’s breath - Our whole existence to subdue

Until we comprehend - The flesh He can not use

© 1992 Raymond Bolton Pena

 

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IV.

That I

May

Know Him?

 

"But what things were gain to me, those I counted loss for Christ. Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ, And be found in him, not having mine own righteousness, which is of the law, but that which is through the faith of Christ, the righteousness which is of God by faith: That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death; If by any means I might attain unto the resurrection of the dead. Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus. Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:7-14

 

The silence screams

but we hear not a sound

Beneath the illusions of life

which now so abound

 

Thus beyond the veil

of this frail human clay

We perceive not reality

nor make truth our stay

 

Therefore we must be born

from on high above

Yet so many boast

of a faith, hope and love

 

Yet could it really be

that the mark is missed?

For in the race before us

what is our true quest?

 

That I may know Him

is it really thus so?

Enough to lose my life

in this world here below?

 

For as it seems to me

I can’t help but cry

Unreality inundates

and no one dares to ask why

 

Thus what is this slavery

to this world down below?

When so many are caught

in the grip of its dark under toll?

 

Yet to see eternal glimpses

and to be spiritually in tune

Is a misunderstood blessing

they call a mystical view

 

But still that I may know Him

myself I must deny

Losing my life in this world

for His sake to find

 

To know His sufferings

not many dare preach

Yet to be washed in His blood

that only I pray for and seek

 

Thus to take up my cross

and to walk in His light

Is to have fellowship with the Father

in His Son Jesus Christ

 

For if we walk in the light

the blood "...cleanseth us from all sin."

For He is faithful and just

"...to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

 

Therefore it's not a salvation by works

but a cleansing by faith

Expressed in a genuine belief

that is not compromised and fake

 

For a faith without works

is a faith that is dead

Thus gross darkness covers the earth

just as God's Word has said

 

Let us climb higher to reach

the prize of the call

Because the land slides are becoming

more likely and stronger to fall

 

They are silencing the truth

have you but a clue?

They rage against Sound Doctrine

to deceive me and you

 

Yet that I may but know

the true vital reality of God

By His resurrection power and life

not to fall in the flood.

© 2005 Raymond Bolton Pena

 

"That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, of the Word of life; (For the life was manifested, and we have seen it, and bear witness, and shew unto you that eternal life, which was with the Father, and was manifested unto us;) That which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us: and truly our fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ. And these things write we unto you, that your joy may be full. This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth: But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us." 1st John 1:1-10

 

"My little children, these things write I unto you, that ye sin not. And if any man sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous: And he is the propitiation for our sins: and not for ours only, but also for the sins of the whole world. And hereby we do know that we know him, if we keep his commandments. He that saith, I know him, and keepeth not his commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But whoso keepeth his word, in him verily is the love of God perfected: hereby know we that we are in him. He that saith he abideth in him ought himself also so to walk, even as he walked." 1st John 2:1-6

 

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V.

Jesus Cares

and

Calls for You

 

"Give ear to my prayer, Oh God; and hide not thyself from my supplication. Attend unto me, and hear me: I mourn in my complaint, and make a noise; Because of the voice of the enemy, because of the oppression of the wicked: for they cast iniquity upon me, and in wrath they hate me. My heart is sore pained within me: and the terrors of death are fallen upon me. Fearfulness and trembling are come upon me, and horror hath overwhelmed me. And I said, Oh that I had wings like a dove! for then would I fly away, and be at rest. Lo, then would I wander far off, and remain in the wilderness. Selah. I would hasten my escape from the windy storm and tempest."  Psalms 55:1-8

 

This thing called time it never sleeps

And we march on daily to its beat

Every day and in every way

Its demands on us puts us in the sway

 

Thus sometimes I wish that I could fly

So far beyond the cloudy skies

Just to find a friend is my greatest cry

Who could read between all my written lines

 

For I sometimes drift and fear I shall fall

Into the void that ever calls

I take one step forward then I take two back

I'm so tired of living under the attack

 

I sometimes feel like I'm spinning out of control

Yet time marches on and no one knows

For they live in this same vortex without a clue

Thus I sometimes just don't know what I can do

 

Because I sometimes fear I will lose my soul

And I feel so lost though no one really knows

After all I am just he

Totally delusional they say that's me

 

But life goes on and I pretend

Yet the pain I feel never seems to end

Thus I so need a real true best kind of friend

Who can also feel the pain I'm in

 

But on this earth I've found not one

And if I have why then don't they come?

Yet perhaps I'm wrong and should really ask

Why don't I pray to my God like in times past?

 

Because Jesus is that true friend I need

And I've neglected Him though for me He pleads!

Thus I now have a clue why Christians fall

It's because they ignore their truest friend who cares enough to call.

© 2003 Raymond Bolton Pena

 

"Seeing then we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession. For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need." Hebrews 4:14-16

 

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VI.

Crucified With Christ

 

"I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me. I do not frustrate the grace of God: for if righteousness come by the law, then Christ is dead in vain." Galatians 2:20-21

 

Crucified - Self Denied

To trust no longer in a lie

 

Enlightened mind - No longer blind

To take up my cross - true life to find

 

Reckoning the path of light

To mortify the flesh to fight

 

Conquering in Victory

In Jesus Christ I am free

 

Acknowledging the truth divine

To face the response that now is mine

 

Submitting my life unto God

Lest I reap what I've sown against the Father's love

 

The flesh of sin cast out can't be

Resist the Devil and he shall flee

 

The nature of sin's not just a force within

Self is the wicked - through the blood we're cleased

 

To walk in the light not by flesh power or might

But by the Spirit of God - to stand for the right

 

The fear of God - Wisdom's beginning takes hold

Of a heart once hard - under sin I'm not sold

 © 1994 Raymond Bolton Pena

 

"There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh: That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit. For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace. Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be. So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God. But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his. And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness. But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you. Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh. For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live. For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God." Romans 8:1-14

 

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VII.

Reflections

In My

Window

 

"For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that shall be revealed in us. For the earnest expectation of the creature waiteth for the manifestation of the sons of God. For the creature was made subject to vanity, not willingly, but by reason of him who hath subjected the same in hope, Because the creature itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God.  For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now. And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the first fruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body. For we are saved by hope: but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for? But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it. Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." Romans 8:18-28

 

Looking out a window

I saw people passing by

Going to and fro, here and there

Yet all living in a lie

 

Just like a still life picture

An artist has portrayed

Not knowing what life really is

So lost within a haze

 

Looking out another window

I saw reflections in the dark

Such empty spaces of such lonely places

Of desolations of the heart

 

Hard and cold the winds did blow

As desperation seemed to scream

Still with not a sound I heard an echo

And I saw passed the living dream

 

Summer heat and Winter cold

Cascade in their own times

Spring rains fall yet Autumn leaves drift

And there is a sadness in the rhyme

 

The season's signs can be seen

And creation's groaning can be felt

We can hear them whisper in the silence

From beyond the unseen veil

 

Screaming, pleading, crying and dying

Eyes of pain reflect

Fleeting glimpses of reality are calling

Through such pain of deep regret

 

Without form and void creation returns

So many live within a lie

Yet the world gives them all that they need

Their minds to nullify

 

Life has no meaning, when nothing is left

But survival in the night

Where there is no love, no trust, and no peace

And the spirit longs to die

 

For we do not mourn, nor do we cry

Though life is lived so vain

We are a people spiritually suicidal

For we are numb to all the pain

 

Come down latter rains upon my soul

Let me feel this heart of mine

Please make me whole and open my eyes

So that I will not be blind

 

O Come Son Light and shine in me

Let me feel Thy warm embrace

Let Thy precious blood cleanse my soul

So that I might look into Thy face

 

O Holy Spirit Thou Breath of God

Breathe upon my soul

Shall these bones live again?

O Holy Ghost I plead to know

 

O Jesus Christ, I plead thy blood

Shed upon thy cross

Awaken me, and set me free

So that I might not be lost

 

O Father God, hear my cries

My love has waxed so cold

Melt my heart and renew my spirit

Please redeem my dying soul

 

The Spirit and the Bride say come

As only you can and will

Take us back to Thy bloody Cross

Resurrect, Restore and Heal

 

Let the earth rejoice

Let the people praise

Yet give my soul to worship

And let me give back to Thee my days

 

O latter rains fall down

Precious true and free

Liberate this prisoner

Let thy glory my eyes see

 

Latter rains fall down

Oh Thy kingdom come

Let my prayer take wings of flight

And let thy will be done.

© 1997 Raymond Bolton Pena

 

"Oh that thou wouldest rend the heavens, that thou wouldest come down, that the mountains might flow down at thy presence. As when the melting fire burneth, the fire causeth the waters to boil, to make thy name known to thine adversaries, that the nations may tremble at thy presence! When thou didst terrible things which we looked not for, thou camest down, the mountains flowed down at thy presence. For since the beginning of the world men have not heard, nor perceived by the ear, neither hath the eye seen, O God, beside thee, what he hath prepared for him that waiteth for him. Thou meetest him that rejoiceth and worketh righteousness, those that remember thee in thy ways: behold, thou art wroth; for we have sinned: in those is continuance, and we shall be saved. But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away. And there is none that calleth upon thy name, that stirreth up himself to take hold of thee: for thou hast hid thy face from us, and hast consumed us, because of our iniquities. But now, O LORD, thou art our father; we are the clay, and thou our potter; and we all are the work of thy hand. Be not wroth very sore, O LORD, neither remember iniquity for ever: behold, see, we beseech thee, we are all thy people. Thy holy cities are a wilderness, Zion is a wilderness, Jerusalem a desolation. Our holy and our beautiful house, where our fathers praised thee, is burned up with fire: and all our pleasant things are laid waste. Wilt thou refrain thyself for these things, O LORD? wilt thou hold thy peace, and afflict us very sore?" Isaiah 64:1-12

 

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